I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

[Chorus:]
My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart

[Chorus]

How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
And after all I tried to do, to stay away from loving you
I'm broken heart and I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

[x2]
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...

Lyrics | Lady GaGa lyrics - Speechless lyrics

Melly : Menapak jalan yang menjauh
Tentukan arah yang ku mau
Tempatkan aku pada satu peristiwa
Yang membuat hati lara

KD : Didekat engkau aku tenang
Sendu matamu penuh tanya
Misteri hidup akankah menghilang
Dan bahagia di akhir cerita

Melly : Cinta.... tegarkan hatiku
Tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau
Naluriku berkata
Tak ingin terulang lagi
Kehilangan cinta hati
Bagai raga tak bernyawa

KD : Aku..... junjung petuahmu
Cintai dia yang mencintaiku
Hatinya dulu berlayar
Kini telah menepi
Bukankah hidup kita akhirnya harus bahagia

Melly : Didekat engkau aku tenang
Sendu matamu penuh tanya

KD : Misteri hidup akankah menghilang
Dan bahagia di akhir cerita

Melly : Cinta.... tegarkan hatiku
Tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau
Naluriku berkata
Tak ingin terulang lagi
Kehilangan cinta hati
Bagai raga tak bernyawa

KD : Aku..... junjung petuahmu
Cintai dia yang mencintaiku
Hatinya dulu berlayar
Kini telah menepi
Bukankah hidup kita akhirnya harus bahagia

Melly : Bagaimanapun hidup hanya cerita
KD : Cerita tentang meninggalkan dan yang ditinggalkan

Waktu bergulir lambat
Merantai langkah perjalanan kita
Berjuta cerita terukir dalam
Menjadi sebuah dilema
Mengertikah engkau perasaanku tak terhapuskan

Malam menangis
Tetes embun membasahi mata hatiku
Mencoba bertahan di atas
Puing-puing cinta yang telah rapuh
Apa yang ku genggam tak mudah untuk aku lepaskan

Aku terlanjur cinta kepadamu
Dan tlah kuberikan sluruh hatiku
Tapi mengapa baru kini kau pertanyakan cintaku
Aku pun tak mengerti yang terjadi
Apa salah dan kurangku padamu
Kini terlambat sudah untuk dipersalahkan
Karna skali cinta aku tetap cinta

Mencoba bertahan di atas
Puing-puing cinta yang telah rapuh
Apa yang ku genggam tak mudah untuk aku lepaskan

Aku terlanjur cinta kepadamu
Dan tlah kuberikan sluruh hatiku
Tapi mengapa baru kini kau pertanyakan cintaku
Kini terlambat sudah untuk dipersalahkan
Karna skali cinta aku tetap cinta

I shouldn't have let him control my emotions or even life! I didn't go to school because I don't feel like leaving the house.

My brain is fucked up. All I can ever think about and good at are in bags. I talk, think, want it 24/7. Even in my fucking sleep!

If I get these, I will rest in peace.

Balenciaga Town
Balenciaga Work
Chanel Large Cambon Tote
Givenchy Nightingale
Goyard St. Louis
Yves Saint Laurent Easy
Hermes Birkin
FOR NOW!

Ok. Now I can sleep. Goodnight. :)

My throat is KILLING ME! I'm sick and didn't attend school today. Since I have nothing to do, I played around with MAC's new collection. This is exactly the reason why I can't save money and pay my friend. Next week, I'm gonna fucking pay her off. Cannot stand not paying her. So embarrassing!

Here are the products that I use. (If you're interested)

Eyes:

Green Side
Mad Minerals Indelible Crease-Proof Waterproof Smudge-Proof Creme Eye Shadows - Bare Necessity (Base)
Urban Decay - Homegrown (Inner 1/3)
MAC - She Who Dares (Middle)
Urban Decay - Perversion (Outer 1/3)
Urban Decay - Half Baked (Crease)
MAC - Sweetjoy (Brow Bone)
MAC - French Quarter (Lash line)

Blue Side
MAC - French Quarter (Base)
Urban Decay - Jinx (Inner 1/3)
MAC - She Who Dares (Middle)
Urban Decay - Perversion (Outer 1/3)
26 Eyeshadow Palette (Crease and Brow Bone)

Face:
MAC - Darkly My Dear
MAC - Truth & Light

Lips:
MAC - Sweet is Revenge

Mother left for Aceh, Indonesia yesterday morning. At 7:20am to be exact. And I was the only one that sent her off because everybody is busy. I'm not saying it the wrong way. She'll be away from 29 Sep till 11 Oct. That's very long. I miss her already now. :(

I've been busy, out lately. I had a broken right hand last month and managed to get the doctor remove the cast one week after. But I got to say, when you break something, it can never be the same again. Now, I can't "crack" my elbow anymore. I have this habit to "snap" my elbow, but now, I can only do it to one side. Which is the left side (I'm positive about the position) My friends kept thinking my left hand is the one with the problem because when I posted my picture on Facebook,it was a mirror image and things look different that way. So, they kept arguing, saying it's the left side. Whereas, it's the right side. So anyway, after that, nothing much happened. Except that my school has been a a bitch. But that's normal. The admin has been like that since way back then. No point yelling, swearing and cursing.

Jersey Shore is stuck in my head right now. Can't get enough of that sick show. I have to admit; sex, drugs and alcohol really sell. OH YA! Did I mention that I went Universal Studios with annie teddy? My mother gave it to his as a birthday present. And I got a bit of the taste too. Well, if my mother didn't pay for my tix, who's gonna? The entrance fee for weekdays is SGD65 and we got the express tix too because them Indonesians decided to crash our day! :P Will put up pictures of it as soon as I'm not lazy enough to deal with Photobucket bitch.

However, I will put Saturday's 25 Sept 2010 pictures up. Farhan's friends and I decided to visit each others' houses. Unfortunately, my mother was not at home and so was Farhan's so they skipped our houses. Maybe next year, guys.
EDIT: PHOTOBUCKET IS BEING A BITCH RIGHT NOW. IT REFUSE TO UPLOAD MY PICTURES, SO I HAVE TO UPLOAD IT SOME OTHER TIME.

Speaking of houses, my parents decided to renovate the house (AGAIN!) Seriously, the Housing Development Board should have came up with a rule saying that you can't renovate your house every 3-5 years or something. Reason: The house will collapse or something. GOD! I'm sick and tired of them renovation. First, they decided to bring in ugly furniture. Second, they renovated the toilets and kitchen. Third, they decided to renovate the kitchen again! Now, they decided to renovate EVERYTHING! And when I say everything, I mean; floorings, ceilings, furnitures, kitchen, toilets and only God knows whether they gonna change the layout of the house. Meaning, they gonna hack some walls and what not. Mother wanted to turn my old room into a walk-in wardrobe. I should be ecstatic right? But I'm not! I just wanna get ready in my own room and smaller area. I don't wanna have to clean up my wardrobe up to 3 days! If you get what I'm trying to say. So I've decided to give my room a theme because my mother is hiring an interior designer for the house. The theme is, wait for it, BETSEY JOHNSON/ CHANEL/ PARIS! God bless me! I know how ridiculous that is! But it's my room anyway, I can do whatever the fuck that I want right? Shocking pink walls, quilted bed, black and white furnitures. We'll see how it goes. Till then, LATER!

It's 3:25am right now and I'm in my living room and I'm hearing things. Goosebumps yo! Logging off!

Promise things will be alright, mi love?

It has been quite some time since I last updated. So here are some pictures taken for the past week or so.